Rain. Rain. And more Rain.

November 22

SUNDAY- today the choir sang at a church in Duncan, which i am not a part of but i DO turn pages for them..so i went! haha I was also involved in the Worship team there and it all went very well.  Hurray for Sundays.

God is really teaching me that it doesn't mater the Style of church you go to, or how the people dress or anything- just that its focused on God, and it's worshiping him. It's neat to try different denominations and see different traditions and ways of doing things. I enjoy it a lot. 

This week has been crazy for Rain! OMGSH. There is flooding going on all over Duncan and around where we are... i feel like i haven't seen the sun forever. People have to evacuate and it's not fun to see or hear about. But on our little island we haven't expirienced to much of the flooding.. only on our paths and stuff but none in any homes or buildings. Praise God! :) 

Yesterday I took my roommates car and Alicia, Jordan, Grace, Paul Bouchard and myself went to coombs! iT was great fun, and you will be proud to know i didn't get us lost :) haha...we had a map and a GPS so that probably helped..BUT still. haha... it was a lot of fun. I got all my family's Gifts ( but there not that big so dont get excited guys..) so thats good.

Conserning gifts... i don't think i'm going to be able to buy many people things... so WARNING. haha.. i have yet to tell my friends this. But i will soon. :)

Kay well i'm out for now- i'm chillin at the Dancing bean with some friends... :) (its a coffee shop thats awesome! haha) so peace for now!

PRAYER

health continued..

that flooding wouldn't effect us to much

My best friends sister is having a baby! Prayer for her because she is single..but she is still having the baby..so thats good! 

yup! 

GOD IS GOOD

AMEN

 

God bless

julia

I should've seen all the signs all around me
But i was comfortable inside these wounds
So go ahead and take another piece of me now
While we all bow down to you


You tear me down and then
You pick me up
You take it all and still it's
Not enough
You try to tell me you can
Heal me
But I'm still bleeding
And you will be the Death of Me


How can you help my affliction
If you're the sickness and not the cure
Too long I've faked this addiction
Another sacrifice to make us pure



You tear me down and then
You pick me up
You take it all and still it's
Not enough
You try to tell me you can
Heal me
But I'm still bleeding
And you will be the Death of Me

(Oh)
You tear me down and then
You pick me up
You take it all and still it's
Not enough
You try to tell me you can
Heal me
But I'm still bleeding
And you will be the Death of Me

I won't forget, I cannot forget this
I won't forget, I'll never forget this

I won't forget, I cannot forget this
I won't forget, I'll never forget this

(screams)
I WON'T FORGET,I CANNOT FORGET THIS
I WON'T FORGET,I'LL NEVER FORGET THIS 

I WON'T FORGET,I CANNOT FORGET THIS
I WON'T FORGET,I'LL NEVER FORGET

(spoken)
I know that i can never prove this illusion
You aren't the one that i thought you were
And so I learned to embrace this delusion
The line that seperates us stars to blur

You tear me down and then
You pick me up
You take it all and still it's
Not enough
You try to tell me you can
Heal me
But I'm still bleeding
And you will be the Death of Me

(Oh)

And you will be the death of me
I WON'T FORGET,I CANNOT FORGET THIS
And you will be the death of me

Running

So I'm running out of time at home. Tonight is my second last night in my own bed... and I'm kinda putting off sleeping cause i don't want to give in. lol lame yes i know but still...

Today i packed everything up to bring.. and tommorrow i make sure my room is ready for others to live in. Weird day. 

I see alison super soon :) That is fun!

Dear God

I pray for Joel right now- i just ask that you give him strength to step out of his comfort zone and talk to whomever you put in his path. Thank you for the tiny friendship we have. Thank you for Janelle as well- please be with her as she prepares to leave for YWAM. Please be with Jared as he is moving to a new place as well. Please let things fall into place easily for him and his roomie... Please be with Dad tonight. Give him strength for tomorrow. Be with Juanita- help her decide about moving to Regina or not... Be with Chantelle as she is facing hardships already this year God...be with that youth group.. help them just to unite and become one flesh under your name. You have such great plans for all those involved God i just pray that you use those people you have put in place and show them your love... And lastly please be with me tonight and tomorrow..as its my last day here. I just pray that you help me through easily and hold me and my emotions. God i love you- please help me lean on you and surrender completely... because i want to. 

Amen.

Time Fly's

Wow i havn't done this forever..

interesting.

Life you ask?

Well I'm dating an amazing man.

By the name Of Jared Perfect.

I'm headed to Bible school this Friday.

I miss all my friends already.

Hardest person to say Goodbye to is my mom.

Haven't written a song in almost a year.

thats not including the one for grad tho.

my life... isn't really any different.

still miss wymark.

Wish i was closer to Christ.

Have awesome friends.

I now own a lap top! thats fun..

and thats about it for now.

Peace.

Julia

so many memories

memories are flashing through my mind as grad is quickly approaching. It's scary to think that in a weeks time i'll be writting my last final... and than graduating from highschool... GAR

I'll miss it..but not the drama. The drama can just be gone... screw it haha..

On good news ....it's almost gone. Love it.

Me.

the end of the road

Coffeehouse was last night..and it was fun. Not a WHOLE lot of people showed..but it was still alright...the music went long hahaha..but ya.

3 more weeks of school... i have so much to do. wow. it's so scary how soon we all graduate... but it was bound to happen sometime i guess right? Right! haha...

I LOVE GOD

In-like

Oh boy--- Oh boy Oh boy.
hehe.

i'm tired.
Goodnight.

Godblessssssssssssss
me.

Coffeehouse yo!

Coffee house is totally really soon! AND I"M PUMPED!!

Combo is singing and i'm doing a set...not sure what i'll play though...maybe Memories, world spins madley on, cinderella song, falling, blackbird?

Who knows...we'll see i guess.....

YAY COFFEE HOUSE!!!

Prayer

God help me through this. It scares me to think that this could be it, it scares me how real it all is. Lord i love you so much, you have blessed me an unbelievable amount this year and really..well throughout my life. I thank you so much for that! You're amazing! I pray right now that you just show me what to do and show me how to take everything in God. I pray also for the end of shcool..that you just hold all emotions in your hands God. Please keep me healthy as well so I can do a good job at the Ceremony on Grad day..i pray that if there is something that needs to be said prior or anything like that God that you just speak to me and tell me what needs to be said God. In all things I do please just help me glorify your name God. I'm done with living for me God, please help me see the opportunities you put in my path God and help me not be scared to take chances for you. I pray as next year i'm going somewhere where i don't know anyone that God you just calm my nerves and just help me through the part of leaving my family and all i've known, all my friends. I pray also for my family God. I pray for my dad that you just revive his soul God with Fire for you... i pray that his relationship with mom would just reburn God...re start... God be with my parents. Be with Alison in her job lord...help her seek you out as she questions things lord...help the guy she's with to be smart and hold that situation lord... Please don't let him hurt her God..show her love. Be with Luke... in his job and his friends God. Help him continue to make good choices in your name and stand up for what is right even when it's harder God.

I love you so much...I love you. God please take away these feelings for this boy if they are not from you God...take them away from me AND him God. Help us know what to do and how to play this out. I trust you Lord, help me to do your will.

In your name.
Amen

YC 2009

I love life I love life I love life I love life I love life I love life I love life....


LIVE IT LOUD!!!!
I can
you can
we can
I gotcho back!

My G-O-D Is B-I-G yo!

The Joys of Nervous-ness

So when Janelle and I get nervouse, we create this nervous laugh type thing. Prime example----Last night. We were with JP and Corbin and it was weird...and we started giggling uncontrolably, until we went to the bathroom to chill...but we actually just kept laughing so it didn't help much. Ya- it was a good time tho lol..

Thats all i really got right now...to say...
Julia.

VOTE

Elections are dumb.

God be with everyone today in their state of mind. Help things to smooth over and just help life be A OK for all once again. LOVEYOU!

Your Daughter.

Madaline!!!!!

There's a girl back home I use to know
She cried her self to sleep every night
We all knew
We all knew
Only girl that comprimise
Strike with the devil to save a night
We all knew
We all knew
She tried to call me a month ago
To sing me a song that she just wrote
But i wasn't home
I should've know
That time had taken it toll
She had no place to go
They found her body resting by the river
I never said good bye
I wish i would have tried
I couldn't hear her cries
As she filled her veins with light
Until she saw the light
I remember we would hide behind the trees
Smoking cigarrets until our throats would bleed
Those were the days
Those were the days
Yeah
Never scared
Never worried that the summer would end
Invincible to sharp end
We drove so fast
Thought last
But time had taken it toll
She had no place to go
They found her body resting by the river
Oh i never said good bye
I wish i would have tried
I couldn't hear her cries
As she filled her veins with light
Until she saw the light
Madeline
Madeline
You will be remembered
Madeline
Madeline
We still have September
Madeline
Madeline
We'll see you on the other side
Die
If i could could turn back time
I'd find a way to remind you
That some how you could try to give in and fight the good fight
Oh you didn't have to die
You filled lies
My precious madeline

Sunday

WOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
yay...
*clears thoaght*

I'm bored.


Kay so anyway- today was awesome! Went to Janelles church and heard Orly and Aaron speak...it almost made me cry it was awesome..than we went with Colbi and Jarrett and died my hair, ate at mcdonalds, well we ate before we died my hair but whateves... and than we did make up on jarrett and myself... and we took pics! they were pretty much amazing! omgsh..yay! and than bla bla bla stuff happend,... and i came home and to my surprise there were two German boys (goodlooking german boys in their young 20's) were in my basement! Luke picked them up on his way out of Med hat comeing home last night... gave them showers and such and is letting them sleep at the jam space...pretty awesome... :) yup..so its a good night. I am currently just downloading a wack of pics to my comp.. thats dumb cause my computer is old and lazy..it needs to be young again... AHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway ya.. so thats life..

Oh and this week is going to suck *sigh*


Peace yo.

holdin on to you

He O.D'd two nights ago.... fell over and just lie there because there was nothing he could do... he was out. He needs help and yet refuses to get it. There is a doctors appt. for him on tuesday--but we're not sure if he'll go. Please God help him see he needs to go. He's depressed and Hurting, not to mention sick. Who cares if he'll miss work, he needs to get better.

Garr

I just gotta keep holding on to Christ, it's all I can do. I just wish thats what he would start to do.

28 days

A movie about an alcohalic in rehab. She's angry at the world, and does anything for the drugs... anything. Her room mate has been in and out of rehab for a while, and on top of the drug ussage has developed an addiction to cutting.

I didn't watch the whole thing, It was too real, too idk... harsh. I cried when I saw the scars- the new cut.... it was scary. I got realy scared for some reason- and got realy angry. I hate going to bed angry.

High Vally/ 17 Again

So, last night was pretty epic, not going to lie. We took Janelles hot standard out on the town and went to this country concert. Going into it we were all like..well if we don't like it we can just leave....but than we sat in the front row and these three Beautiful boys walk on stage. Our hearts thumping, we smiled at eachother and began to giggle nervously... OMGSH GOOD LOOKING BOYS WHAT DO WE DO!!! it was awesome. But even if they were ugly--they were still suuuuch good singers! It was awesome.

Than we went to 17 again...best movie ever! I laughed really hard i loved it. It was grand! hahaha it's really funny...right up there with dan in real life and Yes man! .....i love movies that make me laugh out loud. fricken awesome. yup...and today is shortend periods....HURRAY!

But i'm in IP30 so ttyl!

Theory

Theory is now wednesday at 6 45 this week. Which means i have to do my theory for sure today...tuesday. If i don't...i'll die..cause this weekend is my theory exam.

Kill me.

I seriously want to cry.

I know nothing and am going to fail...and than it will be a waste of 100 bucks.

Garr on life.
haha fml.

jk people... OH MAN if you havn't yet---go to fml.com except wright out the last two words... yea... it's great.

Banff 2009

Well the final trip of life is over, and it's back to reality. I should be writing an essay but I figure a blog is pretty close. Both involve thought and typing..so it's all good.

This weekend was incredable. Simply awesome. I became so much closer to so many peopole, which i didn't even know was possible, learned SO much muicaly--saw some stuff I LOVED saw some I didn't love so much. Made memories, flirted with boys (thanx Juanita :P), sang with friends, and made music with family. So much was packed into such a small time... I wish I could go back and play some parts in slow motion, making them last longer. I'll miss this so much next year.

The best part of the weekend was the last night (sunday night). It's the night where we have a pizza party and on by one we stand up and thank the mcleans for the work they do, thank eachother for being there, thank God, thank Music, thank Whatever and whoever, we share our hearts and humbly spill our deepest thoughts.

I was truely touched to hear what was said that night. Person after person stood up and told their personal story of how music this year and past years with the Mcleans has changed their life. Tears and Laughter filled the tiny breakfest room as we all spoke our minds. I have to say a few things though. I was completely and utterly shocked to hear how many people mentioned me. I'm not saying this to brag or anything- but more as a reminder to myself- I am loved. It was shocking to hear people mention my name in their journey and i was seriously very humbled. I guess you just never know who is watching you and looking up to you. You never know the difference your making in someone else's life. It's crazy.

Another thing I have to say is to Juanita and Janelle.

Juanita. When you stood up and spoke, I'm not sure if you noticed, but the room fell silent and tears spilled. How is this different from anyone else's speeches? because you said what the rest of us couldn't. You broke Mrs. Mcleans heart Juanita- in a good way. She melted right than and there- she truly cares about you, and i think you touched her life that night as much as she has touched yours. I hope that makes sense hun. I just want you to know that I'm proud of you and i'm so glad you were able to come on this trip. Your amazing.

Janelle. On the bus ride home you said the one thing you didn't like about the weekend was how you felt lower than some of the people on the trip (to an extent :P) because you were only in miesters. I want to appalogize if i ever made you feel like that. You are not any lower on the list of people in that group. Meisters is a huge part of what we do, and your just as important in it as Josh or Jerrim. Your amazing, and you've been put there for a reason. So you may not be in 6 different musical endevours... but i know for a fact you changed Pak Kin's life this weekend. And I'd say thats pretty important. You rock.

Kay i should finish my essay, But i had an incredible weekend, and am so happy that it went the way it did. I want to be in choir forever.

My whole life.

Never quit.

just keep going.

Shaperone maybe.

Become the next Mrs. Mclean

Just kidding- thats way to much pressure. Wow.

Break it up!

The spring break 2009 was awesome!! I stayed in a little town called Richmond which is attachted to many other little neighboring communities..and it's all about an hour ish away from Houston Texas!

My family down there is probably the most comical family i have ever known...your very own cosby show everyday.
Uncle Colin- A pastor and guidence Councellor- always has something biblical or humorus to add to the conversation

Auntie Colleen- a secretary and worship leader- adds the sence into conversation as well as disipline while keep a step a head of all the jokes

Auston- Grade 10 AMAZING at drumming, football, cars, such a guy - Is probably the funniest out of them all. He always has somehting to add...something whitty or just funny...imitations run well as well..

Maggie- Grade 8 full of the love of God, Swimmer, Singer, Clarenetist (sp) amazing leader - This girl used to be such a....well Ee-or if you watch Winnie the pooh-- but now has a louder laugh than me and isn't afriad to use it! She can make anyone smile with her amzing gift of encouragement as well..

Emma---Grade 6 (oh to be in grade 6 again) Talkitive as HECK , amazing dancer, singer like crazy--- she just provides the humor and talks when noone else does---or when they do she'll just get her nose in there haha..

I won't go on right now about what I all did down there, but Man.. God taught me so much. Like Joy--- you don't need certain things you just need a love of God and good friends to share it with. This family has got the FAMILY thing down pat. Family nights, family meals, they talk, laugh, and cry together..it sounds cheesy--but I wish I had that.. Ireally do. It was so fun to see what it would be like...even if it was just for a week.

Texas was good.
God is better.