sitting here, not tired, not enthusiastic. I realize i'm waiting. For what? I'm not sure, but I continue to sit and wait for something to happen. Maybe something awesome, maybe something pathetic. Maybe i'm waiting to be tired, or for time to just pass by. Either way,
i'm just waiting.
haha...waiting...waiting ....waiting for the world to change... (8) ......hehe
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Thursday, January 8, 2009
And thats that.
SOOO>>>>> amazing how once you bring God into things..things change eh?
We (janelle and i) invited Jayson and Matt to youth...they didn't show. But after that they started treating us differently...like..idk...it was weird.
and than tonight... We had a 'talk'ish thing... and matt was all hardcore... and than we got home and matt had deleted both of us off facebook... doesn't want to talk to us anymore.
Cool buddy... mature..really. lol. But thats cool...cause i knew it was comming eventually... so whatevs right?.....right. Jayson and us are stilll coool..so thats neat. :) lol.
Yup thats my story for this evening...no drifting..not number exchanging..no riding ontop of cars...just an oldschool loss of a 'friend'. lol. MEH!
goodbye emo kid :P ... love.
me
We (janelle and i) invited Jayson and Matt to youth...they didn't show. But after that they started treating us differently...like..idk...it was weird.
and than tonight... We had a 'talk'ish thing... and matt was all hardcore... and than we got home and matt had deleted both of us off facebook... doesn't want to talk to us anymore.
Cool buddy... mature..really. lol. But thats cool...cause i knew it was comming eventually... so whatevs right?.....right. Jayson and us are stilll coool..so thats neat. :) lol.
Yup thats my story for this evening...no drifting..not number exchanging..no riding ontop of cars...just an oldschool loss of a 'friend'. lol. MEH!
goodbye emo kid :P ... love.
me
Lost in thought...
Do you ever wonder what life would be like without color? Constantly seeing grey's, blacks, whites, No sun burns, no red lips, no yellow sun or green glass... no color.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like from inside a box? If you didn't have the family you had right now?... No one to hold you, no one to talk to , just a box.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you we're super outgoing ALL THE TIME. Never saying no, just going for things when opportunity arrose, having fun.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like without music? No humming, no backround music to movies, no bursting out into song, no piano, guitar, violin, no pitch.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you lived in the olden days? Carrages, horses, dresses, balls (cause every girl deserves to go to a ball :)), masquarades...
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you were a smirf? A blue short thing..that noone really knew anything about but loved you becasue you were blue with a white cap?
Do you ever weonder what life would be like if you were a pop star...a rocket scientist, a world leader, a polotician, a difference?
Do you ever wonder what life would be like... if you were to stop your day. stop the noise, stop the confusion, stop the thoughts of worthlessnes, stop the violence, close your eyes and not focus on the world around you...
and just pray?
Do you ever wonder what life would be like from inside a box? If you didn't have the family you had right now?... No one to hold you, no one to talk to , just a box.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you we're super outgoing ALL THE TIME. Never saying no, just going for things when opportunity arrose, having fun.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like without music? No humming, no backround music to movies, no bursting out into song, no piano, guitar, violin, no pitch.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you lived in the olden days? Carrages, horses, dresses, balls (cause every girl deserves to go to a ball :)), masquarades...
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if you were a smirf? A blue short thing..that noone really knew anything about but loved you becasue you were blue with a white cap?
Do you ever weonder what life would be like if you were a pop star...a rocket scientist, a world leader, a polotician, a difference?
Do you ever wonder what life would be like... if you were to stop your day. stop the noise, stop the confusion, stop the thoughts of worthlessnes, stop the violence, close your eyes and not focus on the world around you...
and just pray?
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
FREE CARSS!!!!
HURRAY FOR FREE CARS! haha just kiding people...it just sounded excited. Here's how things went down today! I had a GREAT day! Not even going to lie! haha. kay..here we go.
SO i had voice lessons which were good..than worship practice..(always a good time) than supper WIth dylan and Chantelle ..good times..havn't hung with them for a while... than youth.. WHICH WAS awesome! Ben spoke tonight..it was great....
THAN....haha..oh wow..THAN the night REALLY picked up.
We called Jayson, (janelle and I) and we couldn't find them (Jayson and Matt) so we phoned again, and told them that we were about to stalk them, because Jayson was going home to Change for work...so we got there...and there car is sitting in the street. Running. :)
SOOOOOO Janelle looks over.."Hey Julia..." ..."ya?" ...."we should totaly steal their car!" "OKAYY!!" ...so we hoped in..me driving her in passanger..and than Matt saw us! BUT HE WAS TO SLOW!!! haha..he ran..but we locked our doors...and than we took off!
now because we are nice pepole, we left them our car. :) haha. and by our car i mean my moms car ! haha... ANYWAY< Janelle and I switched so she was driving..and drove around fro a bit...and than we decided that it wasn't fair to Jayson, cause he was at home WITHOUT A CAR!!...or so we thought!..
(i konw this is really exciting! ..try not to pee! haha )
We got back to Jaysons, and saw Matt WALKING towrads us.."WERE THE FLIP IS MY CAR!!!!!" Turns out Jayson had it. ANYWAY...long story short...
it was fun. :) haha. And than so they got in my car, we were driving Jaysons car, and than we drove to the church cause janelle had to be home soon..and we got out and sat on their hood and waited...than they showed up and we rode on their hood while they drove...BAD IDEA!!!..but oh so much fun! ..
and now we're at home.... on facebook and blogging lol...cool beans :)
LOVE
SO i had voice lessons which were good..than worship practice..(always a good time) than supper WIth dylan and Chantelle ..good times..havn't hung with them for a while... than youth.. WHICH WAS awesome! Ben spoke tonight..it was great....
THAN....haha..oh wow..THAN the night REALLY picked up.
We called Jayson, (janelle and I) and we couldn't find them (Jayson and Matt) so we phoned again, and told them that we were about to stalk them, because Jayson was going home to Change for work...so we got there...and there car is sitting in the street. Running. :)
SOOOOOO Janelle looks over.."Hey Julia..." ..."ya?" ...."we should totaly steal their car!" "OKAYY!!" ...so we hoped in..me driving her in passanger..and than Matt saw us! BUT HE WAS TO SLOW!!! haha..he ran..but we locked our doors...and than we took off!
now because we are nice pepole, we left them our car. :) haha. and by our car i mean my moms car ! haha... ANYWAY< Janelle and I switched so she was driving..and drove around fro a bit...and than we decided that it wasn't fair to Jayson, cause he was at home WITHOUT A CAR!!...or so we thought!..
(i konw this is really exciting! ..try not to pee! haha )
We got back to Jaysons, and saw Matt WALKING towrads us.."WERE THE FLIP IS MY CAR!!!!!" Turns out Jayson had it. ANYWAY...long story short...
it was fun. :) haha. And than so they got in my car, we were driving Jaysons car, and than we drove to the church cause janelle had to be home soon..and we got out and sat on their hood and waited...than they showed up and we rode on their hood while they drove...BAD IDEA!!!..but oh so much fun! ..
and now we're at home.... on facebook and blogging lol...cool beans :)
LOVE
today's journal
Okayy..so I'm behind in school. Just letting you all know.
here is my day.
730-choir
900-filming
1000-school
1200-band
100-school/filming
230-school/band/fliming
330- voice lessons
430- worship practice
600-eat?
650-warm up
700-worship!
900-coffee...with no money..so more like..driving around...drifting hehe.. listening to some tunes
1100- SLEEP
I'm glad to back in the swing of things.
It feels good to be busy finaly again.
here is my day.
730-choir
900-filming
1000-school
1200-band
100-school/filming
230-school/band/fliming
330- voice lessons
430- worship practice
600-eat?
650-warm up
700-worship!
900-coffee...with no money..so more like..driving around...drifting hehe.. listening to some tunes
1100- SLEEP
I'm glad to back in the swing of things.
It feels good to be busy finaly again.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Cops
Okayy,,so heres how it went down.
Janelle and I were drifting around, just a regular night..but Jayson Matt and Scott weren't there...so i guess it was kinda of Adnormal..but anyhow it was a good night haha. We were doing fricken awesome...Janelle driving..me on E brake (hehe) . it was great. Than we turned a corner,...that one corner. those stupid headlights. And our stupid minds. COPS right there, as we drift...except THANK GOD it was actually a real drift...it was just kinda...almost..half way haha.. yea.. and than we started freaking out..and she was watching the cop car to see if the lights would go on..and this car is driving towards us... and we almost hit it! IT was intense...and no...not like camping...just intense. haha. Ya.
But it was a good night! ..Jayson is sick however...and i fear that is our falt..becasue we made him stay up really late..and than kept him up..and woke him up early...and now he called in sick..haha.. OOPS ...oh well..he needs his sleep so that will be good. And now Janelle is a little sick..i think becasue of car sickenss...oh welll : ) WE WILL ALL SURVIVE>>>.
ps. I'm half lacctose intolerant...if thats how you spell it.
and i can't have caffeen
or greece...
feel bad for me hahah JUST KIDDING!!!!
i cheat a lot.... *sigh* but i shouldn't..cuase my heart is hurting right now...
Janelle and I were drifting around, just a regular night..but Jayson Matt and Scott weren't there...so i guess it was kinda of Adnormal..but anyhow it was a good night haha. We were doing fricken awesome...Janelle driving..me on E brake (hehe) . it was great. Than we turned a corner,...that one corner. those stupid headlights. And our stupid minds. COPS right there, as we drift...except THANK GOD it was actually a real drift...it was just kinda...almost..half way haha.. yea.. and than we started freaking out..and she was watching the cop car to see if the lights would go on..and this car is driving towards us... and we almost hit it! IT was intense...and no...not like camping...just intense. haha. Ya.
But it was a good night! ..Jayson is sick however...and i fear that is our falt..becasue we made him stay up really late..and than kept him up..and woke him up early...and now he called in sick..haha.. OOPS ...oh well..he needs his sleep so that will be good. And now Janelle is a little sick..i think becasue of car sickenss...oh welll : ) WE WILL ALL SURVIVE>>>.
ps. I'm half lacctose intolerant...if thats how you spell it.
and i can't have caffeen
or greece...
feel bad for me hahah JUST KIDDING!!!!
i cheat a lot.... *sigh* but i shouldn't..cuase my heart is hurting right now...
Monday, January 5, 2009
2009- new year resoulutions.
it is now 2009. My Graduating year. 6 months and i'm out. done. gone. away from all this confusion and mess of a life. Away from my amazing mother, and the love she pours into me.
With new year comes new problems, new awesomeness, new faith, new love, new delight, new fears, new success, new family(?), new friends. New life. a chance to start over, a chance to get things right, a chance to be loved, a chance to give love, a chance that i will learn.
but i will not make a new years resoulution. because new year resoulutions are dumb. they never last... but if i had to it would be this. I would let people in, further, maybe actually let someone get close enough to me that i would love them and they would love me. But i won't. Becasue new year resoulutions are dumb. maybe i would make new friends because i wanted to, go up to people and just talk, but i won't becasue new years resoulutions are dumb. Maybe i would do better in school, but who wants that? new year resoulutions are dumb.
Just another day. Just another chance to fail or succeed. Just another turn. another page in my book that God is so willingly writing. another day. another breath given as a gift. another breath wasted.
What will you do this new years?
With new year comes new problems, new awesomeness, new faith, new love, new delight, new fears, new success, new family(?), new friends. New life. a chance to start over, a chance to get things right, a chance to be loved, a chance to give love, a chance that i will learn.
but i will not make a new years resoulution. because new year resoulutions are dumb. they never last... but if i had to it would be this. I would let people in, further, maybe actually let someone get close enough to me that i would love them and they would love me. But i won't. Becasue new year resoulutions are dumb. maybe i would make new friends because i wanted to, go up to people and just talk, but i won't becasue new years resoulutions are dumb. Maybe i would do better in school, but who wants that? new year resoulutions are dumb.
Just another day. Just another chance to fail or succeed. Just another turn. another page in my book that God is so willingly writing. another day. another breath given as a gift. another breath wasted.
What will you do this new years?
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